I was driving home after a long day, and my mind started to wander. (Don’t worry, not dangerous-not-paying-attention wander, just regular thinking-about-random-stuff wander.) I thought back to how different things were just a few years ago. I thought about how different I felt about how things were. Whenever something went wrong, it was like, “Oh God, what’s next? Everything always goes wrong!” It was constantly waiting for the next tragedy. But now? Now, it’s different. Now, I see that what you look for, you find. Every single time.
My family recently lost a very beloved fur baby who had been with us through so much sickness and sadness and death. She brought us so much happiness and love, and I honestly believe helped us all through it. She had been sick, and we knew it was coming, but it didn’t make it any less painful. In the past, it would have been easy to wallow, to cry and to be sad. It would have been easy to look for what was going to go wrong next, to stress and worry and be upset.
But if I had been wallowing or waiting to look for what would go wrong next, I’d miss the joy of knowing that a friend was thinking about me, sending me a stuffed animal version of the beloved fur baby. I’d miss the compassion of my students when another teacher let them know. I’d miss getting to share and laugh about all the funny stories about my sweet baboo. I realized I no longer wanted to look for the negative, but I wanted to see the positive instead.
You see, in every situation in my life (and yours), there are negative AND positive aspects. Leaving one job was scary because of financial stability, but I’ve found a place I love. I’ve lost a lot of people I love, but hell, was I lucky to have them in my life for as long as I did! They’ve left me with so much love, it’s unbelievable. And I believe with all my heart that I’ll see them again someday. There are two sides to everything. If you look for the negative, then you will see the negative. If you look for the positive, you will find the positive.
Shit happens. It will happen unexpectedly and continually. It will happen when everything is going great. It will happen when everything is already going wrong. Deal with it. It sounds tough, but we all go through it. You will lose people you love, your heart will break an innumerable amount of times. There will be days when you just need to hide in bed. That’s life. But if you only look for the negative, that’s all you’ll find. You’ll miss all the good things in your life. You’ll miss all the good people who love you and want to help. You’ll miss all the things that make life great. And it is great. You just have to look for it.
One day down, three more to go…somebody has a day off on Friday! Here’s hoping your weeks feel as short as mine will be!